WHAT AN AWESOME DAY!!!!

Well this morning I got up at 6 and left for the hospital at 7:30am. You never know what to expect when you get to the hospital, good news…bad news…no change…who knows…The drive in was nice, it was rainy but the roads were not slippery at all and traffic was not too bad.

I got to the hospital at just after 8:30, got my parking spot and headed up to the 4th floor to visit Ayden.

what a suprise when I got in….

Ayden’s oxygen was down to 26%!!!!  This is the lowest it’s been so far!  I also found out that Ayden now weighs 990 grams or 2 pounds 2 ounces!!!!  I was soo excited just with this news. We reached the 2 pound mark!!!  I can’t even tell you how exciting this is.
they also had Ayden dressed in a preemie onesie (which was still to big for him), but it looked sooo cute!!!!
Ayden was just sleeping away and was so peaceful. Through talking to the nurse, last night and today was the best days that he has had so far, hardly any spells and the ones he had he resolved on his own (the nurses did not have to intervene). I am attributing that to our visit on Sunday, he needed to see mom and dad! (but I am also guessing that the spinal tap they did yesterday helped as well).

Since it was time for the nurses to put a new feed in, I asked if I was able to do kangaroo time and was given this privilege.

While holding Ayden, he actually went down to 25% oxygen (I guess he was really relaxed).  I also spent some time humming to him and this resulted in his heart rate balancing out and lowering a bit (all good stuff).

today due to the way that Ayden was placed, I was able to kiss his little forehead (This is the first time that I have kissed my little guy)…I could not stop, he was so soft and warm and I just wanted him to know that I was here for him no matter what. I also took his little hand and placed it on my lips as well and just enjoyed the time together. What an amazing feeling…
27 days old and I finally get to kiss his little head and hand. I finally get to feel the mom feeling more then ever…

I have to say, today was hard to leave the hospital. I wanted to stay with him and just hold him, but the nurses had their work to do. I just wanted to cover him with kisses and just hug him and tell him how much he is loved.  The feeling inside of me is so strong, my love for him just keeps growing and growing. I can’t believe the connection between mom and son….

I don’t even know if my words can explain my love and happiness for the gift of our son. Even as I type this, I can’t find the proper words to write, and the tears down my face are of happiness and joy and connection and love.

I guess that the love of a child is nothing that you explain through words.

I love you Ayden, so much.