Anybody Got a Burning Bush?
Just one of Dad’s rants here.. but still kinda pertaining to the little guy…
So if you’ve read my previous posts about faith and God and my lack of there of… this might be an interesting story for ya… there’s not news about Ayden here so if your just here looking for news about Ayden wait for mom’s update 😉
So as I started.. one day a few weeks ago I was headed off to work from my new home.. things were looking up… I’ve got a new house… a wife that loves me, a son who I’m sure before we know it will be home… So I’m cruisin down the expressway, the sun just started to fire it’s golden rays across the horizon, just for a brief moment before the sky would be swallowed by winters embrace. And I started to find myself talking out loud. It would appear that I’m talking to God, Well God and Myself… I was praying… praying for my little boys health. But then I started to wonder to myself about my praying and my faith. And I asked God… why do I doubt so much? Why? I didn’t understand. I asked God where was the harm in showing up as a pillar of fire or heck even in a house plant or through an angel… heck MSN me… just some incontestable evidence that he was real…. where possibly could the harm in that be? I mean he used to do that…
So In so many words I realized again right there and then that I had a big hole in my faith… And I asked God to help me believe in him. I was, and had been just going through the motions… I said the prayers because I was raised to… I didn’t actually believe anyone was hearing them… so I had asked – “help me to believe in you!”
after a while I just turned on some music and went to work…Â Shortly after that – we got some bad news.. Lindsay phoned me to tell me that Aydens head was swelling that they had to perform another LB (Lumbar Puncture) to relieve the pressure from his head.. – they had only just done that the day before…
It was at that point sitting at my desk that I said to myself… Okay – I believe – now just help him. I got a call shortly after that, where we heard that things for Ayden were going really good… He took a miraculous swing for the better. I guess that was my burning bush…
Needless to say this whole ordeal has been more than just a journey for the little guy, but also for his Mom and Dad. We’re all coming out of this stronger for it…
Mom should be almost done her update…Â that’s all the ramblings I’ve got for now…